बच्चा और बचपन

आज बेठा हूँ एकेला तो ना जाने
बचपन याद आता है !
कुछ बातें तो ज़ेहन  में है पर
कुछ  धुंदली यादों का पर्दा भी गहरा मालूम पड़ता है !

 माँ बाबा से हमेशा यही पूछा
मैं बचपन में कैसा था ?
घूंटनों के बल चलता था या
दिन भर मिट्टी खाता था ?

बचपन के वो दोस्त  ना जाने कहाँ गए
"पक्का दोस्त" , कच्चा दोस्त , तेरा दोस्त , मेरा दोस्त 
कहते थे जो एक दूसरे को..
कट्टी कर ना जाने कहाँ रूठ के बैठ गए

गर्मीयों की छुट्टी के वो दिन
ना धूप की फ़िक्र ना चेहरे पे जलन
बस पैरों में चप्पल और जेब में कंचे लिए
निकल पड़ते थे मनचले अरमानों के संग

लट्टू सी थिरकती जिंदगी लिए
माँ बाप के सपनों
और समाज के तानों से बचने
के लिए अपने पैरों पे खड़े हुए

आज खड़े है अपने पैरों पर
भविष्य बनाने की बात करतें है
और जो सुनेहरा अतीत बीत गया
उसे इन शब्दों के जरिये याद करते है  !

Saal-dar-Saal – Naya Saal

Phir wahi din aayega
Kuch naya keh ke
Raddi bech jayega


Halla hoga, jamawada hoga
Aatish baaji mein laxmi phunkingi
Aur kahin…
Bijali ka nanga naach hoga

Halke vajan ki jhooti kasmein hongi
Hoton ki aag se door aur
Awwal darje ki bachkana baatein hongi


Nashe ka talab samandar hoga
Madhosh jazbaaton ki
Kashti mein beh kar
Naye iraadon ka nirmaan hoga



Waqt karwat badlega
Raat, din aur mahino ke baad

Phir wahi din aayega
Kuch naya keh ke
Raddi bech jayega

सोचता हूँ

सोचता हूँ आज क्या लिखूं
कोई विचार  गूंज नहीं रहा है
शब्दों की कमी नहीं है; मगर
 ज़ेहन  धोका दे रहा है


कई दिनों से अपने से लड़ रहा हूँ
 अंतरद्वन्द की  इस जवाला में जल रहा हूँ
 जलते अरमानों से काले हुए हाथों से
कविता की कलम थामने में डर रहा हूँ


विचारों का सागर आज भाप बन के उड़ चला है
अब जाने न जाने कब ये फिर से
बादल बनके मेरी रचना पे बरसे
खिल  उठे मेरी कविता की केयारी
और फिर से अरमानों के फूल महके


सोचता हूँ क्या होगा उस दिन
जब कभी विचारों की बगिया मुर्जाने लगेगी
थर थराते हाथों पर  कलम का भार लिए
 रचना की माला में शब्दों को पिरोहने की
एक नयी चुनोती  जगेगी


डरता हूँ ये सोच के की
अकेला कैसे कटेगा हर पल 
मेरी कल्पनाएँ भी मेरे साथ न होंगी
सिर्फ पुराने पन्नों बिखरे होंगे
जिन पर मेरी  व्यक्तित्व की छाप होगी

You are not the only one

you are not the only one

you are not the only one
with such weird feelings and thoughts
explicit imagery of human mankind
thinking what you know you should not

you are not the only one...

who wanders in other world
fantasize about things which are not real
which are not true for your life
for which your mind is still not clear


let me tell you something my friend
it's not just you, there are others few
who have the same delusion
of living in wonderland not realizing and
accepting the truth

so now you know
you are not the only one

White god

Long queue and the crowded chairs

Lots of cry, hue and tears

Whispering mouths and praying hands

Some patiently and impatiently

Silently waiting for their white god to come

It is for their god that they are here

Blank faces, stoned eyes

Curiously staring at each other

And wandering what others might be doing here

Lost in his burden the “white god” is yet come

Time will stop with each other little tiny drops

But no one complains

Leaving everything on their fate

Sitting silently at the corner

And being among one of them

I waited for “him” too

Thinking of what I ll do..

The Long Leaves

The long leaves and the long arguments
Constant nagging and the in vain conclusions
Online, offline and talks on mobile
Same story repeating every time

Asking to free my freedom
Freedom to work late nights
Freedom to watch chicks without losing my sight
Freedom of doing this all day and night

Tall, handsome, muscular
Heavy adjectives and the sense of being a bachelor
The sense of being the “last one”
Among all the college friends
Those who must have become fathers

But finally I ran out of reasons
My folks wanted me to surrender
And for that I was given a solid reason
Reasons I could not deny,
Emotions I had to comply

So mates, here am I
Saying you the final good bye
And with grin on my face
And a smile in my heart
Inviting you all to come little more than thousand miles

Because come what may
I’m ready for my final
“D”- day

Good, Bad and Ugly

As the life took the turn

Events changed for good

Things seems to go well

All well with no hurdle

Months spent like days

And days like hours

The clock on my wall

Ran fast every second seconds

And as the cycle completes

Changes became change

After one things to another

Things came to a halt

From good to bad

Things became worst

Had whatever little left

Watched it getting all lost

Now is the time to see

When things taking a ugly turn

Blackness, irritation, restlessness

Slowly creeping into

Making it a painful fun

Good, bad or ugly

Will have to face all the faces

Even with the choice of running away

I’m forcing myself to make my way

Lost

I'm lost, confused, alone...
There is darkness around me;
The fire has died, my light blown away
By an unwanted breeze...
I am wandering, going around and around
in circles...
I lost my only way…


My heart is sad, it cannot hear any songs.
My mind is tired; it’s full of yawn
the melody is fading...
Residue of my feelings is all remaining
I am wandering, going around and around
in circles...
I lost everything by looking at you
I lost my only way…
I lost my only road
I lost my only hope
I lost of my only mind
I lost my only heart

And you bother about the only savings you had
That’s not fair my sweetheart.

If I Could

People may come people may go

Everything all that I should know

By looking into ur eyes

By looking at ur face

I have always been so amazed

Only if I cud, then I wud

And if I wud, then I shud

Let you know the truth

May be you have heard it all

But u never knew for me what it holds

To make you feel out of this world

Some may call pretty,

Some may call beauty,

Some may call hot

Some may call sexy

Whatever the words

I wud say honestly

Hell with the people

You fit all the adjectives perfectly

Conceived, Born & Grown

Conceived, born and grown
Little hands, twinkle eyes
Sweet smile and with naughty frown
Made her presence felt
in this beautiful world.

With nappy on body and
Body rolling on floor
Mama changing the sheets
And milk bottle lying next door

First school day
And the first school dress
First water bottle around the neck
And the very first step to the school bus.

Moved up to the ladder of age
And moved up to the ladder of dreams
Moved up to the college and
Moved up to the new place

Journeyed all these through
With each year of life
Passing by making all the list of dreams “to-do”
On a way celebrating my existence
and thanking all of you

With gifts and cake and surprises at the door
cards and mails and messages on the phone
wishes from past midnight and throughout the day
I wish for a wish to celebrate this,
come what may!!! 

HuPpY BuDdAy !!!

Bhawnaon Ki Rajniti

Samaj se aage aur

akal se pare

na jaane kitne rishte hai bane

dil, dosti, dushmani

sab mein chupi..

bhawnon ki rajniti


sach aur bharose se alag

zinda putlon ke beech

meethi chooriyon ki dhaar se

vishwas ke khoon mein lipti

bhawnon ki rajniti


dil ki aadhi buji roshni

nazron pe pade jhoot ke saaye aur

zindagi ke khud pe hasnte latifoein ke beech

do muhaein lafjon ke pher mein ghiri

bhawnaon ki rajniti

Ratiya

jab din ke kadam ladkhaane lage

shitij ki god mein sooraj muhn chupane lage

panchyion ka ghar lautta jhund

shaam ki mehfil mein tanhaayi ka ishaara dene lage


ghar ki khidkiyon pe pade parde

aur band darwazon ke beech bhi

mohaale ke rote kutte ki

..awaaz gunjne lage



sunni galli ke beech khada semha lampost

gehre andhere se darne lage

park mein pade toote jhoolon par

bachpana mann jhulne lage



gup andhere kaale aasman ke ped par

latkte motiyon ke gucche tim tamane lage

aur aadhe aakaar ke chand se lipti

shwet daara ke rang behne lage....tab

aur tab is din aur raat ke
saare farak samaj aane lage

FILMY !

FILMY !

With no idea in my mind
I lived my school life
Not knowing where to go
I wander sitting at the last row

Then came the college
By chance, even before I could know
Even before I could think
Everything happened in a blink

With a blank look on my face
And a blank thought in my mind
When I was about to break
Something happened just at the right time

I bunked the classes and enjoyed
Found my interest and straighten my mind
When everyone was studying textbook
I was reading the famous filmy lines

When everyone was preparing for exams
I was busy watching cinema of my kind
When my folks failed to make me understand
They gave up on me to do what I had in my mind


Now I understood the plot of my career
I decided to script each and every move
Editing my ideas more and more
And directing it to an exciting route

Now the stage is set
And the lights are on
Just need to clap
To start a journey of my own

For once I dream of being far away

For once I dream of being far away


For once I dream of being far away
Far from the earth,
Deep into the sea
High on sky way
I think of being lost

Walking on a different road
I take my own lead
Not thinking of the world around me
For once I dream of being far away

From the pool of random thoughts
I direct my imagination
Letting it go in all the way
For once I dream of being far away

Not bounded by the limits of the world
Not guided by every other thoughts
I wish to make the world believe
My only truth is my self-belief
For once I dream of being far away

To break free
From the clutter ideologies
From the sane thoughts
From the fear of being none
From the clichés of the world
I thought of being lost

For once I dream of being far away.

Random thoughts

चाँद की शीतलता में न जाने कितने शब्द कहे
बेचारे उन तारों का क्या जो दूर जल के भी रोशन है

आखों से इस कदर पानी न बहा की
कहीं अगले विश्व युद्ध की कोई वजह ही न रहे